My Pre-Birthday Meldown

Thursday, I turned 25! I remember as a little girl my mom used to tuck me in and we'd read and talk a little before bed; I distinctly remember one particular conversation that went a little like this... "When I'm 25 Mom I want to be married, have a good job, a big house and one baby."  Oh, that beautiful child like dreaming. If you would have asked me 3 years ago I would have never thought I'd be on track  to accomplish anything on that list but here I am 25 married, with child and we're saving up to get our dream house. Although I may not have my dream job yet, I still have 11 months to work on it! I'm extremely blessed and I know it but that didn't stop me from throwing a little pity party the night before my birthday. I'm talking full-on water works with deep sighing and in between snorting as I watched my husband sit next to me with a sympathetic yet "What the Hell is going on?!" face. It was no joke, call it hormones, call it ego , whatever it was I felt silly afterwards. My Birthday ,since I've moved to California, has always landed on a moving week for us, not only a moving week but just a stressful time in general. We've never really been able to celebrate it, in between the packing, the cleaning and not to mention all of the expenses that come with it, my birthday is put on the back burner.  I know what you're thinking, "What a brat!" I  know because as I said how I felt to my dumbfounded husband I knew I was letting my ego take the wheel. It's also not like we don't do anything, my husband takes me to dinner, wakes me up with a birthday song and buys me flowers galore. This year he baked me a yummy chocolate cake after coming home from a grueling 8 hours in the sun. I'm a jerk! I'm not quite sure what led to my pre-birthday meltdown but it did help me realize how blessed I truly am. I made mental lists all day of the things I was grateful for, I did a little self-pampering and shopping. All in all my 25th birthday was a success and though it's much different from any other birthdays I've celebrated, I'm nothing but thankful. I have a wonderful husband, a baby on the way, a ton of amazing family members, love from every direction and everything that my 7 year old self could ever dreamed of having. So here is to my not so graceful 24
exit and my humble bow to 25.